06/07/13
three of us waited in the empty hall while that inspection
lady took notes of all the stains and malice we created since last two years
and what of those who passed on this mess of a legacy?
anyways, notes were taken and so were pics of dirty walls
and stained carpet spots, but we were tired from the cleaning, the fourth one
was busy gossiping with the side door neighbors, he was the only one who knew
them, and its been two years I have been there!!
she finally took all notes she could and we asked all
questions we could, finally it was done after the entire day of cleaning the
stuff out and transferring at the same time, it’s been a tiresome day but now
its almost over…. I was walking through the empty rooms, emptiest I’ve seen
them ever, too tired to remember all the fun times we’ve had here, all the
crazy parties(not too crazy but still Indian crazy, booze and shit you know, no
sex at all…yeah, that sucks big time) and all the stupid shit and all the angry
shit and all other kind of regular shit …. but, I was too tired to realize
all that shit at that moment and then it somehow felt weird .. at least in
those empty moments from the stupid bullshit that we three were so sub-consciously
indulged into…. a very routinely routine for these rooms, specially this living
hall…
and so many have been here, all gone to better places and
yet they have had this connection to these walls…finally four of us at this
very last moment and me being the alone sentimental fool ..
but its still changes nothing in all physical meaning, maybe
some small habits of some of us for a while and that’s it… an apartment emptied
and that’s all, what’s the big fucking deal? why am being such an emotional
pussy, or rather maybe not, I am just being aware of a change and acknowledging a
process, of which many have been a wonderful part….anyways it was momentarily
and daru took a very good care of it … and this gave me something to write about
after a long time
anyhooo that’s it.. she took the keys and we moved out, being acting like such a
sentimental fuck twad, I wanted to see it once more and say some goody filmy
dialogue for one last time(I might have loved doing that)….but I didn’t and we
moved out and she locked the door, took away the key and was gone …and we were
left standing outside cooper chase 208 maybe for the last time as our own
place, we technically had the lease till 12 am … but in all other senses – it was
the end of cc 208 for us …
“Its been a happy place for a lot of people for a pretty long time…Its been a home for me and others ... good bye” ..
maybe I would have said this at last, or I did?